Throwback to my old model-portfolio!

mei 6, 2019

Wayyyy back to the time when…

 

…I was studying and I did some modeling!

I studied Multi-Media Design and Audio Visual Design in Amsterdam, as well as the introduction year of the Art Academy (Rietveld Academie) to become a filmmaker. And on the side, I did some modeling.

I selected a couple of the photo’s from my old portfolio to share with you guys!
This is the 10 to 17 -year younger me.

If you already have a low self-image, don’t start with modeling.

It was exciting, and a lot of the time a harsh world. But it definitely made me more confident and let me have a more positive self-image. Because in modeling, there are lots of people judging you purely on your appearance. And, and  Maybe it sounds crazy, but to me when you hear someone say to you, “ah… you would be the perfect model if you would be taller and have a nose job” WTF It sounds so extremely over-the-top harsh and completely ridiculous, that it made me care less about what others think!

I had my two feet on the ground. I just felt that almost everyone in the business was just putting up an act of some-kind, fitting in, and most of the time extremely insecure and frustrated themselves. I could see through the charade, so it didn’t affect me at all.

Being a model means having to deal with lots of rejections, before getting a YES on a job.
And even though I could handle the people the comments and the attitudes, but the rejections were not much fun at all. But that made the chase only that much more fun, and a WIN that much sweeter!

Getting Inspired
Not everyone is horrible! All dough may look and sound that way, not everyone is horribly unstable and mean… Some of my best friends today are people I met in the field! There are lots of agencies, model colleagues, stylists, makeup and hair stylists, and other people on the set that are just amazingly talented, creative, nice and inspiring to be working with!

Modeling changed my life

Now looking back, this modeling totally formed me and led me to the place I am today.
At the end of the day, I did invest way more time and energy on castings, test shoots and portfolio viewings than I made money to compensate me for it. But I think I got something way more value out of it. The experiences along the road of my modeling career made me the person I am today.

These are the main  life lessons are the things I’ve learned along the way:

–People knowledge. Recognizing someone who is insecure and therefore acting a bit tough, braggy and mean. And not feel threatened by it. It’s ok. We all have struggles I guess.
-SOMEONE will Always find you ugly! But someone will always find you beautiful! (Aside from the obvious fact that true beauty comes from within and all that… but we are talking modeling biz here, so we go no deeper than the outer layer here.)
-Not giving up. Yes, you grow a strong backbone by so much rejection, but success is only a matter of time!
–Self-confidence, it has to come from within yourself, not by validation of others.
–Learning on set, And last but not least: I think that having experience in standing in front of the camera definitely helped me in becoming a better photographer and filmmaker. The compositions, and base camera and lightning techniques of shooting images and production basics in the field.

Today

Sometimes once in a while, there are still little commercial gigs I do. Mostly I get typecast as “the mom” to do a shoot with one of my babies. But mostly we shoot our own stuff for our blog and Instagram for brands. So that’s a kind of commercial “lifestyle” modeling too I guess.

 

Did you know that:

– I am only 5.2 feet tall! (huge disadvantage for a model, I only did beauty, lifestyle, and commercial.

– Being highly emphatic made it easier to feel that all the superficial bitchyness was just an “attitude” and a charade, some sort of coping mechanism. Underneath it all they all where good people struggling with lots of insecurities. 

– As a model, you get to work and meet and be inspired by lots and lots of cool creative and very nice people too!!! 

– I look different through a lens… I may look better on camera than in real life I guess hahaha Once a photographer didn’t reckonize me, but looking through the lens of his camera he said: “aaaah YES now I see you!”  XD

– I started modeling when I was 15 years old, I got a lot less active at the age of 21 as I started my professional career as a Motion graphic designer and presenter for a dutch tv show (that’s a whole other story).

– I treasure the pictures from all the shoots I did. So lovely to look back on!

– I never ever starved myself, Ate enough and didn’t over-exhausted myself with working out.

– I never spend money on photoshoots or paying an agency! Especially the last one is a big NO they should invest in you if they believe in you.

-I did invest a LOT of time in my portfolio, Collaborating with lots of photographers, stylist, and makeup artists!

– I know nothing of how things in the modeling business are now in 2019.  This is my experience of 15 years ago.

-Most of these photos are in Tiny little resolution! So sad I don’t have the high-res files anymore! I think I’m going to contact the photographers, maybe I can still get them from their archives! (I really hope so!)

–I never earned LOTS of money with it! I lived with my parents and went to school! This was just a fun side job. 

 

I guess I combined my skills from my education and my experience in modeling. So there you go! My experience in standing in Front of the camera started right here and led me right to where I am today.

Scroll all the way down to see more photo’s from my old portfolio!

 

Thanks for reading along and if you have any questions, ask me on my Instagram, because I live there hahaha:  https://www.instagram.com/wildandboho/ 

Love,
Jolanda Marti

Blogpost written by: Jolanda Marti

 


Photography in my portfolio selection on this page  is by:

-Nicole patricia malina
-Hanneke van Leeuwen
-Michel zoeter
-Rob l. roos
-Martin wieldraaijer

-Wouter keuris
-Jacomijn Lyppens
-Jan Stijnman
-Richard bakker
-Robert Hart

The copyright of these photos is from the photographer who created the photo.

Don’t copy, use or publish any of these photos without their explicit permission! Want to know more info about a photo, just ask me, I will direct you to the right photographer.

I’m so so grateful for these amazing artist I got to work with!

If I’m forgetting a name (and I am, but I can’t find the names anywhere anymore aaarggg it’s killing me!)
or if anny info is wrong, please please please let me know!!! I Will ad it to the list! I don’t remember everything from 15 years ago! I wish I did do…  Let me know by sending me an email or a dm in my insta!

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Run wild my child

apr 29, 2019

Run wild my child

We love to prepare a picknick basket and go out in the woods. Driving to the woods we are hearing all the “where are we going”-’s and “are we there yet”-’s and ” I don’t want to go to the wood”-’s of the world. Yes, our kids are like all the other kids in the world. But once we are there all of that is forgotten and off they go. Climbing trees collecting treasures and building castles.

We hike for a bit. Find a nice place to lay down a plaid and our stuff as a “home-base”. Chilling and eating and playing around in the shade of the trees. We spot dears, hear the songs the birds are singing to us, the wind blowing through the trees and our wildling cubs howling to the beat of the forest.

Little feet are making a wonderful crunchy sound as they touch the layered floor of the forest. Every step feels different, little sticks, rocks, bones, grass, and mosses are all hiding under a think mixed layer of old crispy and fresh soft fallen leaves. Making every step an exciting surprise. Walking on barefoot shoes is making our exploration feel natural to the touch and safe against rough undergrounds and sharp objects at the same time.

All things we normally tend to worry about seeming small and insignificant. No to-do lists, bills to pay, work to do, places to be. Because this is all that matters, this is all we need. Each other and nature. This feels like freedom. Pure happiness.

We are rich when we leave to go home. Our bounty: A scraped knee, two feathers, seven stones, four leaves, improved tree climbing skills, twelve-spotted dears, hundred stories, and five fully charged inspiration batteries.

On our way back home our little Quinn falls asleep in the car, Haley is quietly looking out the window and Miley asking us ” this was fun! When can we go back!?”

As soon as possible my little wildling.

Love,
Jolanda, Michiel
Miley, Haley & Quinn

    We love Wildling shoes

     

     Wildling shoes geared our whole family up with their barefoot shoes and we are loving it! 

    The wonderful feeling of running and climbing barefoot through the forest while being safe against rough undergrounds and sharp objects is amazing! 

    Walking around barefoot or with barefoot schoe, wair doesn’t just feel great. It’s actually really healthy too! The reason why is very well explained here:
    1- In Duch by Linde Logtenberg on her Instagram here!
    2- or in this video by Teck Insider

    We want to thank our partner Wildling shoes  for supporting us and making it possible for us to keep producing our video’s, vlogs and blogs. It’s because of these kind partnerships we get to do what we love most:
    Being creative and sharing our stories and Images!

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    Living with Syndrome of Raynaud

    apr 16, 2019

    Afraid of what might happen

     

    Coping Syndrome of Raynaud and tips on preventing an episode.

    Whenever the temperatures get low. I will start wrapping myself in.
    Whenever I step into a place that has air conditioning on, I shrink in.
    Whenever there is a brisk breeze… I cover my ears.
    Whenever I feel overwhelmed and tired, I wrap myself in a blanket to keep warm.

    Afraid of what might happen. Afraid of my fingers, my toes, my ears, and my face turning in to numb white-yellow paralyzed lumps. Losing all fine-motor skills and not being able to move those areas of my body. The area’s around the temporarily affected body parts feel cramped. And it hurts. When I return into space with a stable temperature and something warm to start up my blood flow again the color and life starts to flow back into my feet again.

    “I remember when I was a small child I would try and hide in the classroom”

    I practically never talk about this to anyone. because it’s not a big deal to me. For me, it’s the most normal thing in the world. I remember when I was a small child I would try and hide in the classroom, trying to skip play-time in the schoolyard. I preferred to stay inside in winter time. I preferred to not go through the whole process of another episode again and again.

    The only other person who had the same reaction to the cold is one of my best friends. And she told me she had googled it and that it might be Syndrome of Raynaud.
    I thought, Nah, what are the odds of us both having this same thing. I probably just get cold easily and am “being a pussy about it” (such a Dutch way of thinking). So I never dug into it.

    Years later I talked to my yoga teacher Ingvild at Yogaways about it. The topic came up because I tend to get really cold feet and lose all feeling and sense in my toes during yoga (which is something you do barefoot) Especially while doing yoga outside and it’s not a shimmering 25°C outside (or there is a cold breeze). She told me it sounded like Syndrome of Raynaud.

    “But I realized this was a thing to be reckoned with. Ignoring it could turn out devastating.”

    Ok. This was the second time someone pointed this out to me, so I thought it was time for some research. WOW! The pictures of white and yellow fingers and toes I found online were spot on what I was experiencing. The pictures of the black and blue limbs scared me a bit. I never let it go that far! Like, What the hell, the white stage was painful enough, and I always got my blood flow back before something like that could ever happen. But I realized this was a thing to be reckoned with. Ignoring it could turn out devastating.

    Overall there is no real cure. But there are some things I do that will prevent me from having another big attack on my limbs.

     

    Advice for dealing with Syndrome of Raynaud

     

    1. – Hot/cold – Training the veins and gaining flexibility there is making the attacks less heavy and makes recovery after an attack faster.
      Taking hot/cold showers, or going to the sauna is a well-controlled way to train the fine fains in your limbs.
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    2. – Protect yourself! – If it’s temperature and the thing that triggers an attack: Protect your hands, feet and face/ears before going into situations where you just KNOW you could have another episode.
      I also notice that whenever I’m tired or emotional or overwhelmed it tends to happen! So finding rest and nesting on the couch or the bed with a blanket when needed is key! And when an episode is triggered as an emotional or after a scare, It’s important to retrieve yourself. Get your heartbeat and adrenaline levels down. Drink some tea, move and warm up the affected areas gently. And try to distract yourself by reading, watching Netflix or talk to someone.
      .
    3. – Health! – Having a good healthy body will help you battle this, and will make the outbursts less extreme and less frequent. In short… It’s a veins problem. So obviously your overall health has a big influence on it. These things seem obvious (to me) but I’m going to sum them up anyway:
      -Do not smoke (This one is very important)
      -Eat plenty of deep green veggies
      -Move your body! Run, climb, swim, do yoga, fitness, whatever you like! As long as you get off that couch!
      -Get enough sleep
      -And be mindful! Do whatever you need to take your stress levels down!

     

    I really hope that this might help some of you that may have these symptoms and maybe never realized what it was. And for everyone else: This is a thing, It’s not a huge thing, its not life-threatening, but it is something I have to live with. If you ever see me suddenly walk away when its cold, or stepping inside the hallway of school while everyone is standing outside in the cold, or waiting in the car instead of stepping out, I’m not being impolite, selfish or a pussy… I’m preventing an attack on my limbs. 😉 Not all conditions are visible.

    Do you know anyone that feels pain or gets paralyzed limbs with a sudden change of temperatures or cold?

    Blog by: Jolanda Marti
    Photography: Michiel Fook

    Wikipedia on Raynaud syndrome

    Raynaud syndrome, also known as Raynaud’s phenomenon, is a medical condition in which spasm of arteries cause episodes of reduced blood flow.

    Typically, the fingers, and less commonly the toes, are involved. Rarely, the nose, ears, or lips are affected. The episodes result in the affected part turning white and then blue.  Often, numbness or pain occurs. As blood flow returns, the area turns red and burns.

    The episodes typically last minutes, but can last several hours. Read more…

    Yoga and Syndrome of Raynaud

    One of the things I recently started doing is wearing these barefoot shoes while doing yoga whenever  the temperature is too cold. Wildling shoes geared our whole family up with their barefoot shoes and gave me these for my yoga practice!


    Just perfect for preventing getting cold feet during my yoga practice and still give be the next best thing after real bare-foot yoga. Because of the freedom my feet and toes have in these shoes, I am able to protect myself from the cold and still feel like being barefoot. The top of the shoe is smooth which allows me to glide, while the thin and flexible sole gives me a lot of grip on the ground and prevents me from slipping! It works better than I ever could have hoped for! So grateful for this solution!

    So for everyone doing yoga on rough terrain or who get cold feet and maybe get cramps or has Syndrome of Raynaud like me!? These Barefoot shoes are a really good solution!

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    Dance all the way to South Africa

    mrt 25, 2019

    South African
    Dance battle!

    Whaaaattt!? We had such an amazing weekend! We are still in awe about it.

    We went to a South African Dance battle Livestream recording who invited a select group of reporters and influencers. Organized by @ontmoetzuidafrica

    We took off from Amsterdam central station in a riverboat where we had a traditional South African diner onboard. We had a great time and met lovely and inspiring people!

    We docket at Zaandam and entered “de partonage“ where the event would take place. And oh, my! We witnessed a spectacle of energy, movement, rhythm, emotion, and passion. So amazing! #mindisblown

    Inspired and determined to go to South Africa someday we entered the boat to go back to Amsterdam. Had left us totally impressed! 

    Could you imagine the surprise when we heard that we where the ones that would walk off the boat with two tickets to go to South Africa!?  Say Whaaaattt!?!?
    @ontmoetzuidafrica Is actually sending us to South Africa!!! We still have trouble wrapping our heads around it. So while this information is sinking in I’m telling you guys to prepare for some epic video’s coming up on our YT channel this year!       Love Jolanda

    To all the Dutch readers:  WIN JIJ EEN RETOURTJE NAAR ZUID AFRIkA!?

    Jaja alleen voor de “dutchies” YUP! Je hoort het goed! Wij zijn al volop onze reis aan het plannen maar JIJ kunt ook twee vliegtickets bemachtigen, en wie weet komen we je wel tegen op een avontuur door Zuid Afrika! Hoe tof zou dat zijn!? 

    Hoe? Wie? Wat? Waar?

    Doe mee en win! Stuur jouw versie van de Gwara Gwara dans in en maak kans op twee vliegtickets naar Zuid-Afrika! Plaats je dansfilmpje in de comments van dit facebook bericht. En de dans met de meeste likes wint!

     


    WE LOVED it!

    Ik zeg het nog maar eens… Wat een weekend, wat een weekend.
    Nou, je weet wat je te doen staat, de voetjes van de vloer en laat ze je beste dans moves zien!

    Liefs,  Jolanda

    Kijk de LIVE stream hier terug:

    Het was zo tof om bij de opnames aanwezig te zijn! 
    Voor de zeer oplettende kijker, we stonden verdekt opgesteld links in beeld te kijken naar dit spektakel. Volgens mij flitsen we 1 of 2 keer wazig door de hoek van het beeld! haha!

     

    Shoot us mom!

    mrt 22, 2019

    Never let children pose… let them be themselves!

    From the moment Miley was born until she was 4,5 years old we had a big photo studio. She grew up surrounded by camera’s, lights, makeup, fashion, and set styling… She occasionally watched the models getting ready and saw me shooting them in our photo studio. She saw them “pose” naturally and make subtle changes in their pose with fluid movements. changing expressions, taking directions from me and all of that without looking forced or unnatural. And she loved it.

    As it comes to photo shooting kids, I like them to be interactive. give them something to do, something to engage with, something to play with. Anything but posing! I don’t like kids posing, because most kids (Really, I mean 99%) look forced and unnatural. That kind of photo’s with kids smiling those fake (almost creepy) smiles makes my hairs stand up. Not cool. Just fake.

    So whenever I’m shooting kids (my one or any kids for that matter)… I let them play.
    I have a strict NO POSING rule.

    But… Tiny baby girls turn in to big baby girls! And then that day came, the day when Miley (8yrs) Came up to me dressed a bit much over the top and  Asked me “Mom? Can you shoot me? I’ve made everything ready!”
    I looked over and there was my living room turned in to a complete styled set. With 3 different concepts, she wanted to work on!  I was like “What the….!?!? uuuh… Ok!? I guess?”

    So we could proceed in peace. After every Klik, Miley made a tiny adjustment in pose, expression or looking direction. I didn’t have to give her any directions. She was totally in control.  Like she understood exactly what it was she wanted to reflect, express and what story she wanted to tell. I felt a warm proud glow in my heart for her. What a great way to express yourself.  There goes my “NO posing rule” for her… She has got this down.

     

    Turned out she had a school project where they had to take their favorite piece of clothing, make a photo of it, and write a little poem about it. She wanted to create a photo she had pictured in her mind. (Creative little creature) So who am I to refuse such a brilliant initiative from my 8-year-old.

    I grabbed my camera gear and as she stepped in front of the camera. Wow! She is actually doing a really good job posing! Not one Photo where she looked unnatural or overly posed. I guess she intensively studied the professional models in our studio! My little baby copy-cat. Loving this…

    After a few minutes, her little baby sisters decided they wanted attention too, and started to jump on top of Miley… So I had to promise them that I would shoot them too tf they waited their turn. And If they would go and play a bit more I would call them and take their picture.


    As for her sisters… The rule still stands. No posing! PLAY! Once I called them for their turn to shoot, I gave them something to keep busy! Singing a song,  playing peekaboo, giving them a ukelele or a watering can to play with. And as usual, that way I had a fun and playful shoot with my two babies. And my no posing strategy still worked out worked perfectly fine with them! Scroll all the way down to see the rest of all the photo’s we took!


    How do you take pictures of your kids? I’m thinking of making a series of DIY video’s in photography toppics like “kids photography” .
    Would you think that’s something you would like to see? Anny requests on specivic photography toppics!?


    Love,
      Jolanda, Michiel,
     Miley Haley & Quinn

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    VIDEO – Getting My MOM Tatoo

    mrt 20, 2019

    Baby name MOMMY Tattoo

    I got my first tattoo a while back and I wrote a BLOGPOST about it!
    Now I’ve also made a video of my experience. Check it out and don’t forget to subscribe on my YT channel!

    So in this video, you will see me getting my first tattoo! 7 Years ago I came up with the idea of putting all my baby’s names on my forearm in one long stretched line. I’m not someone who gets a tattoo in an impulse, and Maybe we would get more kids in the future, and I wanted to include all of my baby’s names in it… I spend a long time designing a tattoo that was minimalistic and had exactly the look that I had in mind. Like practicing an autograph, The name tattoo design had to have the perfect flow and casual hand-drawn feel to it. 

    So now 7 years later with 3 kids in total, I have my mom tattoo with all the names of my kids! It only took 20 minutes and didn’t hurt at all!
    —-Miley—Haley—Quinn—  Just Perfect!
    And The end result is exactly how I hoped it would be!

    I really really love my first tattoo! Happy as can be, with my hand-drawn tattoo line design perfected over the past 7 years. Perfectly put on my arm by Manon from Le Nou Tattoo. 

    So once more:  Thanks, Michiel for making the reservation and tanks mom for sponsoring half of it for my B-day! To my three baby girls, Miley, Haley & Quinn, I love you forever, just like this tattoo will be on my arm! 

    Would you ever get a dad/  mommy tattoo, name tattoo or do you already have one!? What do you think of mine!? Let me know what you think in the comment section of the video here or on Youtube!

     

    Love,
      Jolanda, Michiel,
    Miley Haley & Quinn

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    Meydän – https://soundcloud.com/meydansound/

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