Day 2 of #Confessionsofayogi
I TALK A LOT. No, but really a.lot. I can’t help myself. It just pours out of me! Like there’s a direct link between my thoughts and my mouth! The filters in between are paper thin to hold back the most stupid, impulsive or hurtful thoughts, but anything else just flies right out! I’m an open book. Holding back feels like the world upside-down to me. Especially when meeting new people whom I like, look up to, or whom I want to impress or just like me. It all went just fine, and everything was good.
But afterward, I start going over the conversation over and over again in my head… did I talk too much!? Did I say anything stupid, or did I say anything that could be misunderstood!? Did I make a fool out of myself!? A thing like this could keep me feeling like sh*t for hours or even days. And when I get lost in this loop of negative feelings and thoughts, I need @5ofusinabusto pull me out.
It all comes down to this: I am insecure about the impression I leave behind to people because over the years, growing up, I’ve been told so many times that I talk too much. By different people, so it must be true. I’m not able to embrace this or feel confident about it
Anny chatty people restraining themselves (or unsuccessful trying to) because of what others may think!?
No matter how cool you feel, there’s always that thing that manages to trigger your insecurities. Is it that body part you hate? Your teeth when you smile? A move you can’t make? The things you say?