Confessions of a yogi

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The #Confessionsofayogi movement is back and they asked me to be one of the hosts of the new #Confessionsofayogi Instagram 7 day yoga challenge from 14 – 20 May 2018!

Huge honor! And of course, I said YES! Time to push myself out of my comfort zone and share some yoga pictures and thoughts!
This cool challenge was powered by TheFatYogis and they are giving a 3-month free access to everyone who joins us for 7 days!!!

SO…Let’s talk SELF IMAGE!!!
Here are the 7 posts I shared during this challenge!

They are just making it up as they go along. And from that moment on, I felt like it was ok to doubt myself, that it was ok to just go for it and see where things will lead me. Not to be certain of anything or scared of failing. Failing is ok. And acting like you are in control does work empowering. But sharing your insecurities fearlessly feels liberating. Allways working on balancing those two things in my life… when to stand tall and proud, and when to share your weaknesses and insecurities to be supported and understood.

So anyone else here not knowing what the hell they’re doing and just winging it in life!? X Jolanda

Day 1 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: INSIDE OUT

Who we really feel we are on the inside doesn’t always show on the outside.
Who is your inner you? And how do you let them out?
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There’s the thing… I have no idea of what I’m doing. (SWIPE TO SEE the 3 sec. later photo) Most of the time I’m just improvising. Trying to do the best I can and trusting my instincts while at the same downing every step I’m taking. With everything, I do in life. With work, with raising kids, at home, while traveling, with yoga, with all of this “being an adult” thing. But apparently, the trick is to do everything with an attitude like “yeah, I got this”.I exactly remember the moment as a kid where I had the epiphany, that clear moment of realizing… all the grown-ups are faking it. My teachers, my parents, all the others… all these adults are acting like they know what it’s all about like they have all the answers and loads of self-confidence. But it’s all smoke and mirrors.

Day 2 of #Confessionsofayogi 

Theme: SELF-CONSCIOUS

I TALK A LOT. No, but really a.lot. I can’t help myself. It just pours out of me! Like there’s a direct link between my thoughts and my mouth! The filters in between are paper thin to hold back the most stupid, impulsive or hurtful thoughts, but anything else just flies right out! I’m an open book. Holding back feels like the world upside-down to me. Especially when meeting new people whom I like, look up to, or whom I want to impress or just like me. It all went just fine, and everything was good.
But afterward, I start going over the conversation over and over again in my head… did I talk too much!? Did I say anything stupid, or did I say anything that could be misunderstood!? Did I make a fool out of myself!? A thing like this could keep me feeling like sh*t for hours or even days. And when I get lost in this loop of negative feelings and thoughts, I need @5ofusinabusto pull me out.
It all comes down to this: I am insecure about the impression I leave behind to people because over the years, growing up, I’ve been told so many times that I talk too much. By different people, so it must be true. I’m not able to embrace this or feel confident about it
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Anny chatty people restraining themselves (or unsuccessful trying to) because of what others may think!?
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No matter how cool you feel, there’s always that thing that manages to trigger your insecurities. Is it that body part you hate? Your teeth when you smile? A move you can’t make? The things you say?

Day 3 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: ASSETS

RESILIENCE. No matter what life swings at me. I tend to see the positive. I tend to work towards goals. But if I end up in a different place or the goal didn’t meet up to my expectations, I adapt, embrace the situation and see the positive. CHOOSING to enjoy rather than to mope or be angry at the situation.
Being flexible, and not just the body practecing yoga… but being flexible in expectations in life. Optimistic, happy, light, relaxed, resilient. Being able to choose to react that way, and truly feel that way. Finding so many reasons to be happy in the NOW, rather than the “later”. And teaching my kids to find happiness in everyday life.
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Let it shine! Show us, or tell us about that thing that’s just beautiful about you. A move, or a thought, or a part of your body.
We wanna see you shine!!

Day 4 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: CROOKED

We’re all at least a little bit crooked. A little weird.
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My crookedness, my WEIRDNESS is just all of me. I’ve never been the one that fits in. I’ve been bullied in school to the extent that I had to change school. I wasn’t just bullied by the kids, I was bullied by the teachers. The kids just followed by example… which is infuriating! Treated differently because I was the weird kid, the one not paying attention, always dreaming, drifted off in my own bubble asking weird questions for a kid like: “how come the galaxy is never ending… and if there is a wall… whats behind it?” or “until how far can we keep on counting” I know, super annoying to a teacher to deal with those kind of questions while trying to teach kids to read. But I was just a kid, and I found school extremely boring.
Thankfully my amazing mom pulled me out just in time and found another school where my creative (monkey brain) mind had a bit more freedom! And there I fitted in a bit more, still the weird one as always. But that was just fine, it was celebrated. It gave me back my self-worth… I accept I’m not what others conceive as “normal”. When most people go left I go right. And thankfully I found someone swimming in the same direction as I did. So now I swim together with @5ofusinabus and our tree beautifully weird little baby girls. And swimming together makes it all so much easier not to care what others may think.
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What crookedness are you blessed with?

At this moment my third baby girl is one year old. And I’m in no rush what so ever to get back like in photo nr.1 that moment will come all on it’s own living a healthy lifestyle and my dna. But that skin is something that will never change! And that’s ok with me! I love my body! I rather have my three baby’s than perfect skin! And I think all moms agree with me! That sh*t doesn’t matter. Love your body! It created LIFE!
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I will post the other challenge posts today and tomorrow. I have some catching up to do!!! So tell me!
How do you change?
The one thing we know for sure is that everything will always change. How do you deal with a changing body? With life changes? How does that impact your self-image?

So better late then never here’s my
Day 5 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: CHANGE

This first picture is a #latergram and was took on 1,5 year after baby number two. Healthy habits like eating good food, doing yoga and a looot of patience got me to that point. But don’t think my belly was just as it was before having kids. My skin had changed a lot. This photo is a result of good lighting and good posture. My belly was this flat, but not all the time. After eating curtain things I do get a bit bloated. But the biggest change my body had made was that my skin was (and still is) looking a bit funny too in certain positions…

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Check out my perfectly “imperfect” belly/skin. LOVE YOUR (MOM)BODY!!!

Yes still on it! Here my
Day 6 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: OVERCOME

Overcoming something right now… I typed a very long caption about how I overcome things on a daily basis. And now I have to type it all over again because Instagram just posted my picture without any caption. Just blank! Aghhh! So frustrating! 😥
So here we go again… 😞
I’m a bit of a control freak, so whenever I find myself in a frustrating, scary, uncomfortable situation I’m not able too just sit there and to nothing. So I always try to do something about either the situation or my way if reacting to the situation. I don’t like to have negative feelings or thoughts. But I’m not going to let my own fears and insecurities hold me back. So I keep on talking to (new) people even do I know it could hunt me for days (read challenge day 2 post) or something like putting a new vlog or blog post online. Clicking on the “publish” button is really scary stuff. But I do it anyway. Taking a deep breath and just JUMP! What’s the worst thing that could happen!? Life is to short. .
That feeling of levelling up, of transcending. When you’ve been bothered about things about yourself for so long, and then one day you overcome it. The stuff that most bothered you might even have become your pride.
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How do you change?

Day 7 of #Confessionsofayogi

Theme: EMPOWER

Well I think at this moment in life, this ” Mom thing” is overwhelming, fun, hard and crazy but above all else, it’s by far the most empowering thing I have ever experienced
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What empowers you most? What is it you do, or feel, or experience that boosts everything for you? That turns darkness into light?
Show us your empowered you!

 

 

 

 

 

And that’s it!

I loved to think about these themes and what they meant to me!
Yoga is about so much more than just a series of movements.
It was so nice to read all of the other participant posts and seeing so many honest and sincere yoga posts on Instagram!
Such a lovely community!

Do you ever take part in Instagram (yoga) challenges!?
I would love to hear about it!

Bus out of Hybernation

Yes! The sun was shining, the temperatures where soft and there she was again after a decade of 3 months. Our radiant tined slice of happiness on wheels. Before taking her out Michiel gave her a bit of TLC. He changed the spark-plugs and refreshed the oil.

And we were so ecstatic to have her out of the garage again we took her for a spin and followed the sun!
We started the van and as it began to move forward baby Quinn started screaming and laughing. This was the first time she was aware of being in our van, and she absolutely LOVED it! We were totally surprised by her reaction. What is it about this van that makes it so special that even a baby of 10 months can feel the difference!?
Haley (our 3-year-old) kept telling us in complete disbelief “Momy LOOK we are driving in the VAN! Mommy look SUNSHINE!”
And Miley was just totally into her drawing… she loves to draw in the van. Even when it’s just parked in the driveway she spends hours in there drawing and coloring and playing with her dolls in her little bubble. This van is like one of her best friends! And when it came out of the garage she just went into defoult mode like the bus never left our driveway.

We drove through the beautiful Dutch landscape and took some pictures to celebrate the first trip with our lovely van in 2018
Finally, it was just the 5  of us in a bus again. How is it possible that those 3 months of winter feel like forever.
But with all that ice and salt on the road, it really is best to keep her safe and sound inside our garage.

Michiel was focusing on the sound of the engine and felt a bit worried about the sound it was making… it sounded perfectly fine to me. But he was not so sure. So we made it a small tour around the region. Tomorrow he will be adjusting the valves of the engine after a tip from Marco so hopefully, that’s the thing what’s off about the sound.

Driving an old VW van is not just all about having fun… it’s more like 60% having fun 20% maintenance 20% figuring out what the f*uck is wrong with it now. You HAVE to LOVE to solve the riddle in the most unexpected moment, stranded in the most unexpected places. But see, that’s the charm, that’s how stories are made, how people are met, the unexpected… that’s where the adventure begins.
Therefore, it’s more something of a lifestyle than “just a car” she is part of our family, my first car, and we have been living this #vanlife for the last 13 years! And we’re LOVING it!

Loving at this moment:

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Where the WILD things are…

This girl is turning 3 years old, and I think since day one she always felt like she owed the place. And with “the place” I mean literally every place she sets foot. Walking around with a straight back, a confident tread and determent brave look in her eyes. She is boss! She owns it. Fearless. She will do whatever she sets her mind to. Absolutely no one will be able to stop her. You may think you can, but you won’t. She has lots and lots of important things to do, and she’s making them up as she’s going. Because that’s her style, and that’s working just fine for her.

Life is just one big Adventure… and there must be nothing more wonderful than being a Haley of 3 years old, right here right now.
SO Happy birthday our little Wild Haley. May you always feel as confident and fearless as you are now! You are amazing!

Watch here the Birthday photo we made for her this year “WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE” inspired.
And the rest of the photo’s we took that day.

Photography: Michiel Fook

Roadtrip Amsterdam to Barcelona Video

There was a time we went on an adventure. All four of us in a bus. We had a wonderful journey, met amazing people, and saw beautiful new places. This is what #vanlife is all about! To us, it’s a bonding experience and making memories to last a lifetime!

We started this trip with the four of us, but after we came home we discovered that we were no longer four! A little-fived person had announced her arrival to us. And thinking back… she was already with us half our trip! So we came home a Family of five. 7 months after we arrived home in May 2017 our little baby girl Quinn was born! Making the road trip we had an extra special memory to us!

Re-live our roadtrip from Amsterdam to Barcelona with us…

Videography: Michiel Fook

Watching them grow up… and I wonder…

Here a video about how I’m watching my kids grow up, and wonder… what will this life have in store for you? Worries, hopes, dreams, happiness. All I know is, I will be there and love them forever! It amazes me how valuable you become as a parent! Everything that happens to your kid happens to you! All the good and the bad. Loving your kid more than your own life! That is the most powerful love and connection there is.

What do you see when you look at your kids play? Do you ever wonder how they will become as adults?
No matter what, they will always be my baby’s! Take a look this new video and feel free to leave a message!

Videography: Jolanda Marti

Mindful parenting

Mindful parenting
How to be in the moment as a parent when your mind still is racing, thinking about everything that has been keeping you busy. Being a Mindful parent isn’t easy! So Learn from your kids! They are experts in experiencing and enjoying the present… They know best! Stop overthinking everything and start living in the “NOW”

Last September we went on an unexpected adventure somewhere in the dunes near Zandvoort in Holland. The kids were laughing and running and playing from the moment we stepped out of the van… But for me, it really took me a while to let go of my constant train of thought, let go of my worries, plans, and huge todo list. Until I realized what I was doing to myself and them. I wasn’t really there with them. I was missing out on all the fun while I was too buzzy being an adult!

So in that moment, I thought:  That’s it! I’m done adulting!
And guess what!? I had the best day ever!

Having trouble living in the moment as a parent!? Jump in there with your kids and just allow yourself to fully embrace the fun!
Wo’s with me!?

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